[b]asic melancholy; sullen glooms and black studies; atrocious temper; protracted vegetable comas; silences and disappearances; terror of death, heights, strokes, mice; shyness and gaucheness; pompous, platitudinary, repetitive periods of bottom-raking boredom and boorishness; soulburn, heartdoubt; headspin; my all-embracing ignorance; my still only half-squashed and forgotten bourgeois petty values; all my excrutiating whimsicality; all my sloth; all my eye!